I am not here to spread -ve energy but I really need a place for me to express my feelings
#throwback
During primary school years, I used to fill in teacher, doctor and another one I forgot what it is (but I clearly remember there are 3 choices we were asked to fill in) as my ambitions
I don't really know other occupations and I don't have the urge to find out XD so throughout my primary school I always chose the same three, just that their positions are not the same
I don't really remember what did I fill for this during secondary school and high school but the combinations were like : pharmacy, teacher, doctor and architecture
Whenever I was asked to fill this, I was like...not again Zzz
Because I actually don't know what I want to be or want to work as in the future
Future seems so far to me then
I never bothered to find out about it also
Until one day...
Our teacher told us to choose based on our own INTEREST
INTEREST
That's the word which inspires me lol
But I am sure that others' once told me the same thing also
I just don't know whether I was not listening to them or that word sounded different to me only when I reached the right age
After that I asked myself : "What is my interest? What do I really like?"
For so many days I was asking myself the same question I remembered and I got a conclusion
I am interested in :
1. Money
2. Working
3. Math 。
That's all
Okay...Money, so I have to find a job which can make me earn tons of money
Working, a job with lots of works I guess?
Math...that's the thing!
Why am I interested in math? I think I am given the talent to solve equations haha
I found math very easy. From primary school until form5, I get good grades for my math, it's either an A or A+ for form4&5
Even my add math I never get below A (not showing off, just wanna express how easy I feel about math)
It's easy, so I am interested. I am interested, so I found it easy. I don't know which comes first but it's easy for me AND I am interested
So (high salary+a lot of works+math)=?
I asked my dad about this and he told me =actuarial science
I did some research on actuarial science
It's about statistics, investments, earning, loss and stuffs like that
You can work in bank, insurance company or companies related to business
They definitely need this and I am definitely interested!
Since then, actuarial science was my 1st choice
#throwback ends here
However
My SPM results are not very good (only 8As, mixture of A+, A and A- , a B+ and a B)
My STPM results are not good either with a CGPA of only 3.09
Those results are insufficient for actuarial science if I wanna go into local U
My family is a middle-class one, so going to private will burden my parents a bit...
So I still applied for actuarial science, but I chose other courses as well depending on my results
On 520 I got an interview offer from ukm for architectural science
The first look at this course was like...I like this course actually
I love to design building or houses, especially interior design (that's the reason why I like to play the sims XD)
I told my mum I am not interested and I don't wanna go to the interview because I don't like it
But the fact is, I was scared...
Scared of what? You might ask
As far as I know, this course actually needs a lot of creativity and drawing skills
Drawing skills can be developed but creativity? How am I going to learn to be creative?
I am not sure whether I am born with creativity
I don't invent things...I don't have a creative view on the things I look at...So am I born with that? I really doubt that...
Everything of architectural science seems like having a question mark tagging along for me
I browsed on youtube about it and many videos appeared
I played a few of them
And that's when I began to think...
People working 24hrs nowadays and surely they need a comfortable house or cafeteria or somewhere else where they can relax themselves
It will be good to design those places for them
It will be good to see people are in the building I design
So...architectural science, why not?
I decided to give it a try
By now, I still don't have any clue regarding this field...researches started! tomorrow I mean ><
My interview is on 27/5 (wed)
I am really really really really nervous
I have always had this problem since young, speaking formally in front of others
"Do you think you are QUALIFIED?" No, I would definitely answer lol
I am not confident in myself though I know I can do very well if I give all in
But I will be doing my very best for the interview because now I really wanna get this course
I will start exploring into this field from tomorrow!!
All the best to me~
You can do it! Hwaiting!
My words end here ♥#
It's your road, and yours alone. Someone can walk it WITH you, but no one can walk it FOR you.I finally came to know the feeling when anyone wrote this lol
#throwback
During primary school years, I used to fill in teacher, doctor and another one I forgot what it is (but I clearly remember there are 3 choices we were asked to fill in) as my ambitions
I don't really know other occupations and I don't have the urge to find out XD so throughout my primary school I always chose the same three, just that their positions are not the same
I don't really remember what did I fill for this during secondary school and high school but the combinations were like : pharmacy, teacher, doctor and architecture
Whenever I was asked to fill this, I was like...not again Zzz
Because I actually don't know what I want to be or want to work as in the future
Future seems so far to me then
I never bothered to find out about it also
Until one day...
Our teacher told us to choose based on our own INTEREST
INTEREST
That's the word which inspires me lol
But I am sure that others' once told me the same thing also
I just don't know whether I was not listening to them or that word sounded different to me only when I reached the right age
After that I asked myself : "What is my interest? What do I really like?"
For so many days I was asking myself the same question I remembered and I got a conclusion
I am interested in :
1. Money
2. Working
3. Math 。
That's all
Okay...Money, so I have to find a job which can make me earn tons of money
Working, a job with lots of works I guess?
Math...that's the thing!
Why am I interested in math? I think I am given the talent to solve equations haha
I found math very easy. From primary school until form5, I get good grades for my math, it's either an A or A+ for form4&5
Even my add math I never get below A (not showing off, just wanna express how easy I feel about math)
It's easy, so I am interested. I am interested, so I found it easy. I don't know which comes first but it's easy for me AND I am interested
So (high salary+a lot of works+math)=?
I asked my dad about this and he told me =actuarial science
I did some research on actuarial science
It's about statistics, investments, earning, loss and stuffs like that
You can work in bank, insurance company or companies related to business
They definitely need this and I am definitely interested!
Since then, actuarial science was my 1st choice
#throwback ends here
However
My SPM results are not very good (only 8As, mixture of A+, A and A- , a B+ and a B)
My STPM results are not good either with a CGPA of only 3.09
Those results are insufficient for actuarial science if I wanna go into local U
My family is a middle-class one, so going to private will burden my parents a bit...
So I still applied for actuarial science, but I chose other courses as well depending on my results
On 520 I got an interview offer from ukm for architectural science
The first look at this course was like...I like this course actually
I love to design building or houses, especially interior design (that's the reason why I like to play the sims XD)
I told my mum I am not interested and I don't wanna go to the interview because I don't like it
But the fact is, I was scared...
Scared of what? You might ask
As far as I know, this course actually needs a lot of creativity and drawing skills
Drawing skills can be developed but creativity? How am I going to learn to be creative?
I am not sure whether I am born with creativity
I don't invent things...I don't have a creative view on the things I look at...So am I born with that? I really doubt that...
Everything of architectural science seems like having a question mark tagging along for me
I browsed on youtube about it and many videos appeared
I played a few of them
And that's when I began to think...
People working 24hrs nowadays and surely they need a comfortable house or cafeteria or somewhere else where they can relax themselves
It will be good to design those places for them
It will be good to see people are in the building I design
So...architectural science, why not?
I decided to give it a try
By now, I still don't have any clue regarding this field...researches started! tomorrow I mean ><
My interview is on 27/5 (wed)
I am really really really really nervous
I have always had this problem since young, speaking formally in front of others
"Do you think you are QUALIFIED?" No, I would definitely answer lol
I am not confident in myself though I know I can do very well if I give all in
But I will be doing my very best for the interview because now I really wanna get this course
I will start exploring into this field from tomorrow!!
All the best to me~
You can do it! Hwaiting!
My words end here ♥#
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